The After Taste

The After Taste
-last night i was here talking about my "secret love" i went to bed thinking of the "rationales" (just like every procedure in a checklist, everything has an explanation. a purpose.) i fell asleep never getting to evaluate my thoughts. they were all mixed up. then, i got out of bed at about 6 in the morning (30 minutes later than the usual) with concrete thoughts. the first few words in my mind were "never make someone a priority if that person only makes you an option". after that, i paused. as i was drinking coffee with my father i then realized maybe it was not love after all. yes! it was not. what i had was a sudden gush of emotions. very immature if you'd ask me. i should have thought of it first. as many times as i could. i don't have a deadline. might as well take all the time i need. im still young at 19 anyway. :) lol! it's really funny how love transform people. it makes us weak. oh-so-weak! but it's also the best thing that could happen to anyone. to love and to be loved. :) it was not love it was infatuation. :)

King turns 18 today

- maricris necio or "king" as we are fond of calling her is celebrating her debut today. she is funny, smart and sige na nga nice nadin. hehe! pano ba yan! 18 kana! botante kana! woot! woot! :) ano kaya wish nya for her birthday? i hope God blesses her more. she deserves it. well for those guys who are interested i think she is single. sa tingin ko lang ha! di ko sigurado! well, a person equiped with good looks and personality that matches her beauty? sa tingin nyo ba eh single sya?! that's for you to find out! happy birthday king! wabshoo!!!



Wacky Wednesday
-here is what my horoscope says today..."If you keep reaching for more people, places or things, you won't ever get enough time to enjoy what you have earned so far. Today is about taking time to establish things -- grow relationships and explore what other people are looking for in life. You just may able to help them get it -- and that sense of satisfaction is just what you need right now. You have a lot to share, a lot to teach -- and an awful lot to learn from others." the bottomline " you're reaching for higher goals, stop -- enjoy the ones you've reached so far." yah, siguro nga i've been working my ass off lately. i need a break. im already being a paranoid. lagi kong naiisip if i start to slack off i won't reach the finish line just in time pero naisip ko di naman tatakbo ang finish line palayo ng palayo, nasa dulo lang yon may tamang oras para marating ang dulo at hindi pa 'yon ngayon. kahit magpahinga ako mararating ko padin yon. kahit hindi gold ang medal ko hindi naman lahat sinuswerteng makatapos diba? :)

The People I am starting to hate
-lahat nga naman ng tao ay magkakaiba. there are some you get along pretty well with and sadly, there are some who are just not "be-my-good-friend" material. i could tell. i have some in my own circle.
Person 1 "The Selfish Gold digger"
this person is more than just thought to be thoughtful pero hindi naman pala. epal na plastik pa at abusado. you never know how this person treats you over your shoulders. i could not care less. yes, we are casual with each other. the normal "huy friends tayo ha" relationship. gusto ko siya dati. akala ko namimis-interpret lang siya ng ibang tao but the truth is i am the one mistaking this person to be all that (nice, thoughtful,trustworthy kind of things). grabe! abusado talaga! very materialistic and self-centered! ma-epal pa if i might add! kaya pala madami nagagalit sa kanya. now i know. if only we could talk. baka mabago ko pa siya. sayang kasi. there are more things better left unsaid about "it". komplikado. sanga-sanga ang issue tungkol sa kanya. all i could do now is to wait patiently and if i have the courage to confront (which i find the best way to counsel this person) "it", i might be able to make this person realize what she is missing dahil sa ugali niya. tsk, tsk. sayang.
Person 2 "In the name of LOVE"
we are falling apart. we know. this might be just another misunderstanding. love can unite people, it can also destroy. friendship for one. diba tish? ano masasabi mo? kilala mo siya. i could not elaborate. baka mabasa nya. :) hehe. lalo pa gumulo! i know my mistakes. try to know yours.

There goes that phrase...
-euripides said " waste no tears over the griefs of yesterday". ako, people sometimes get mad at me bacause of what i do pero i know what i am doing and i do it for a sensible purpose, i won't waste effort for things that will only bring confusion or even hate. i know i am misunderstood for so many things. i do not have regrets. i know i grow with it and so do others. it may not show in a snap but eventually it will.