Thursday, July 13, 2006

i wish i could be

i don't want to frustrate God for wanting things He thinks may be too good for me or things that i should not be a part of, i tried and i failed because i loved.

"Let me in to see you in the morning light,To get me on and all along the tears they come, See all come, I want you to believe in life. But I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away And when you find out who you are its too late to change"
i am not brave enough to tell you what i feel because i know things are still spinning crazily and haven't found the time to stop for you and make you finally realize what you should really do, i don't want to be too befitting of your doubtful feelings. i don't want to get hurt when you realize your heart still belongs to the one you've left behind. you may love me but when you find out who you really are it's going to hurt me more than how it will sting you, i wish i could be every little thing you wanted, all the time. Oh, i wish i could be every little thing you wanted, sometimes...
"Lift me up, just lift me up dont make a sound Let me hold you up before you hit the ground See all come, you say your alright But i get the strangest feeling that you've gone away, you've gone away And when you find out who you are too late to change"
let me fill up the emptiness. i may not be better but i'll try to give as much of what i could give my self. i will look for your fears and i'll make you know mine. i will be with you, i want to be with you, i wish i could be every little thing you wanted, all the time. Oh, i wish i could be every little you wanted, EVERYTIME.
let me furnish your hollow feeling. i wish i could be every little thing you wanted, all the time. Oh, i wish i could be every little thing you wanted all the time. this time, every little thing you wanted all the time, oh, but i get the strangest feeling that you've gone away with out even making me try...
sing to me again.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Dear God,

each and everyday am i thankful for all the things (good or bad) that you make me experience for i learn and gain wisdom from them. i may not be as christian as others could but i hope you understand that i am human, i am sometimes weak that i succumb to sins. for that, you know i am very sorry.

the past few days has been tough, my father and niece were both hospitalized. i do not know how much more i could take from all the worries. i know that you do not give us challenges we could not surpass but i am in the midst of giving up. Lord, guide me and give me and my family more wisdom, strength, faith and understanding so that we may pass this test.

thank you for the people who stand by our side all the time. may you bless them too. i am sorry and i love you.

sincerely, your child,
jan michael montealto villanueva

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Blahs in my return


my latest picture.
tell me, is there anything un-likable about me?
bakit ako iniiwan?
yah, maybe im still bitter, maybe i need someone to help me move on, ikaw, pwede ka ba?
*ismayl*